Life Vs Nothing
By nothing I mean, the great nothing that fills me inside everyday. That feeling of emptiness and unhappiness every time I think I know what I'm doing and where I'm going I look into the mirror and see nothing but emptiness and lost time.
By Life I mean the glimmers of hope. The hope of things changing, the hope that if I can climb out of this sink hole I will touch down to the earth with my legs already running and I can go places. I can do things. I can experience.
By experience I mean the experience of stability. Something I have pondered about longingly more often of late. Ties to places, to things, responsibility for my actions. A job, a house, a car most importantly a place. To only be in one place. To be in a place not tied between places, neither coming nor going, just waiting for the next place. To be in a place that is my destination of places.
Stability; Reliability; dependability
Oh to be stable.
